Well we have roughly 5 weeks until baby Rugh #2 is due to arrive and I'm feelin' it!
I knew that at this point in this pregnancy things were going to be crazy... but I'm just not ready to deal with it all!
Like clockwork, all at once, I've got sinus infections, swelling, headaches, carpal tunnel, bad acid reflux and heart burn and horrible pelvic pain as a result of my weird sized bones. Lets not forget about how bad these contractions are the second time around. Wow!
We are in the process of moving and OH. BOY. For those who don't know, my in-laws are moving back east for a year and are having us stay in their house while they are gone. Don't get me wrong, we would be pretty crazy to pass up a good opportunity like this to save money and pay off some debt.. but the fact of the matter is - I would rather move somewhere else (or stay where we are) where I know my cats are welcome, where I'm not afraid I'm going to ruin a $5,000 couch and where I can feel comfortable moving things around the way I want them.
I'm really going to miss living here (We have so much space for another baby) but mostly, I'm just going to miss having my OWN space! It's been really, really emotionally hard for me to pack up this place knowing that it's going to be a long time until I can my own things in my own space and feel comfortable again. I don't care if I can put up a couple pictures and paint a couple walls. It's still not my house. Plus, just telling someone that you're moving into your in-laws house automatically makes me feel like I'm telling them that we can't get our act together and have to move into someone's basement. It's a little embarrassing. The trickiest thing for me has been to pack up everything into boxes and not be able to create a space and be ready for our new baby. It's like I'm nesting in reverse..
I've tried to take some initiative as far as organizing things and moving things in efficiently (Since I'm not very helpful as far as lifting furniture and carrying boxes) but instead, somehow, me doing what I have done has been transformed into me being pushy.
Maybe I'll go stay in a hotel for the next 5 weeks and pretend I'm on vacation!